Yes the damn voices in my head won't let up! They think they got me beat, but they don't know I am not going to listen when they have nothing nice to say!! Sometimes they try to talk over me, or talk louder then me, but it doesn't matter because I have made the choice not to listen!
No I am not crazy! Well not totally.(LOL) You know the voices I am talking about. The ones that tell you not to try something new, you can't do that, or you will never make it. The voice that tell you you are not good enough, or not worthy. I mean those voices can speak very loud and they can sound like the law of the world. The can scare you so bad you never ever try any thing because the fear of not being good enough keeps you from doing so.
I know about those voices. That conversation you have in your head. We all do it. And sometimes the thing we want most we talk ourselves out of because of fear. That is what the voice is fear. Fear loves to be in controll of you and your life. If you don't know how to tell it to shut up, or do what you want to do inspite of it, your life is never going to be the life you want it to be.
It's such a hard lesson to learn. I mean we are all taught to lesson to that inner voice. Go with your first mind. But if you listen closely, you can tell the differents between fear and the Lord whisphering in your ear. The tone of voice is different, the words are different, and the Lord speaks with love.
You know I have my new webiste in the works. And I tell you the voices have been talking so loud lately I am thought I would go mad! I know If i want a different result I have to learn to do things differently. The voices are pissed. I have learned to tune them out, but everyone in a while they sneak up on me and tell me don't even try it Sakina, you can't do it. You don't know what you are doing. You don't have what it takes. So when I have those days, I say to the voice(because it's not even important enough to give a name) thank you for your opinion, but I am going to give it a try anyway.
It feels so good to be able to say that and mean it. Just typing this out right now I have tears in my eyes. I mean I feel so powerful. I feel like I am in control of my life. I am living my life and not just floating by. It's wonderful. I am taking part in my life and I am going to determine how my story is played out.
So with that being said. When your voice telling not to try, tell it thank you, but I am going to go for it anyway. If it continues to talk, just tell it to SHUT UP ALREADY!! Smile, and go on with your day.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Don't Stand Behind me, I'm Detoxing!!
Yes this weekend is the big weekend. I am going on my diet detox and I am going to stop smoking. So please do me a favor and watch the news, and If you see a woman who looks like she lost her mind thats me!!! Seriously, I have to do this for myself. I mean I talk about wanted to get healthy, wanting to drop a few pounds, and stop smoking. But that is all I am doing is talking. So now the talking stops and the actions starts.
Now is the time for me to take action. I'm excited about finally doing what I keep talking about doing. Getting my mind and body right. Getting my life on the right track. Getting my business off the ground. What's funny is once you start taking actions everything just starts coming together. Once you stop wishing and dreaming and start taking those steps to make those wishes and dreams come true, it's a whole new world.
You know we pray to God for things we want and need. "Oh God please let me win the lottery so I don't have to worry about money any more please God!!" But we never buy a lottery ticket! We pray for that perfect man, but then say all men are dogs. What I have learned and I think it is a very important lesson. First, God is not going to give you what you are not ready for. If you want more money, then you have to be able to hand the money you have right now. Second, you will only get what you think you deserve. Postive thinking and action is how we make our dreams come true.
Come saturday morning, I will start my diet detox and no more smoking. I thought starting it on saturday was the best way to go because of the 3 day weekend. If I'm cranky I can be cranky at home. Even more important, If I am gotta let one lose I can do it in the comfort of my own home. LOL!!! And I know that's going to be the case!! So I just want to tell my family sorry in advance. Don't stanad behind me, I'm Detoxing!!!!
Now is the time for me to take action. I'm excited about finally doing what I keep talking about doing. Getting my mind and body right. Getting my life on the right track. Getting my business off the ground. What's funny is once you start taking actions everything just starts coming together. Once you stop wishing and dreaming and start taking those steps to make those wishes and dreams come true, it's a whole new world.
You know we pray to God for things we want and need. "Oh God please let me win the lottery so I don't have to worry about money any more please God!!" But we never buy a lottery ticket! We pray for that perfect man, but then say all men are dogs. What I have learned and I think it is a very important lesson. First, God is not going to give you what you are not ready for. If you want more money, then you have to be able to hand the money you have right now. Second, you will only get what you think you deserve. Postive thinking and action is how we make our dreams come true.
Come saturday morning, I will start my diet detox and no more smoking. I thought starting it on saturday was the best way to go because of the 3 day weekend. If I'm cranky I can be cranky at home. Even more important, If I am gotta let one lose I can do it in the comfort of my own home. LOL!!! And I know that's going to be the case!! So I just want to tell my family sorry in advance. Don't stanad behind me, I'm Detoxing!!!!
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
I got a lot on my plate, no wonder I am overweight
Everytime I look at my to do list, it's blank. That's only because I keep forgetting to write down what needs to be done. And that's because there is so much to do it makes my head spin!! From all of the head spinning I am starting to get a bit dizzy. So I to lay down a lot.(LOL)
With trying to finish my second website, to getting all the materials and topics together for the people's group. I'm still trying to come up with a name for it! I am at a lost and I would love any and all suggestions. I guess it helps if I let you know what I am trying to do. Ok, it is all stuck in my head so forgive me if it sounds kind of off centered.
What I am trying to do is create a group for women and men, to come together and talk about life topics. Just a group of people looking for a comfortable place to talk about life and their roles in it. I want to have different topics per group meeting such as family, love, work, money, sex, education, investing, and everything under the sun. I am also going to have a book club.
There will be a $10 a month fee. Yeah I know why isn't anything free any more. Well this $10 is going to be a magic $10. I know you are asking well how in the world is that possible. Give me a second, I am going to explain. You can pay the month fee two ways. You can either pay out right $10 in my hand every month, or you can take that same $10 per month and sign up with GDI. Why GDI? Let me tell ya why I picked GDI.
What I love about GDI are a few things. First, when you sign up with GDI you will be able to have your very own website and domain name. You can do what ever you want with your site. My website is about the power of your thoughts. It's in the process of being finished. Second thing I love about GDI is, when you get other poeple to sign up with GDI, you make money for as long as they have their GDI account. So if you sign up ten people, you will make your monthly fee back and now you it for free. The last and most important reason I picked GDI is if you sign up 5 people in a one week period (Sunday-Saturday) you will make a $100 bonus. That is a $100 every 5 people you sign up in one week. As my websites and groups grow, that is more money for you.
I project at least 20,000 people in the next two years. That's $20,0000 per month for those who get in early. What I will do is promote my websites on and off line to bring in new GDI members. I will have everyone's referral links on my websites. So the more I promote your links the more money you are going to make each month. If you bring a new person into the group that person is yours and will be signed up under you. So the group is going to benifit it's members in many ways.
That is one of the things I am working on. It's work, but the pay offs are going to be big for everyone involved.
I am also working on keeping track of my spending habits. Oh my I just always seem to be low on funds and have no idea where the money went. So starting today, I am writing down ever dang penny I spend so I know where the money is going and I know where to cut back. Let's see how this works itself out. I learned it on a show I was watching on TV this morning.
Of course the next thing on my list is dropping a few pounds. I think that's on most of our minds right. I am trying to come up with the best approach to this long over due task. What I am learning is one day at a time girl, one day at a time. Where there's a will, there's a way.
I welcome all and any feedback, and would love some suggestions on coming up with a name of the group.
With trying to finish my second website, to getting all the materials and topics together for the people's group. I'm still trying to come up with a name for it! I am at a lost and I would love any and all suggestions. I guess it helps if I let you know what I am trying to do. Ok, it is all stuck in my head so forgive me if it sounds kind of off centered.
What I am trying to do is create a group for women and men, to come together and talk about life topics. Just a group of people looking for a comfortable place to talk about life and their roles in it. I want to have different topics per group meeting such as family, love, work, money, sex, education, investing, and everything under the sun. I am also going to have a book club.
There will be a $10 a month fee. Yeah I know why isn't anything free any more. Well this $10 is going to be a magic $10. I know you are asking well how in the world is that possible. Give me a second, I am going to explain. You can pay the month fee two ways. You can either pay out right $10 in my hand every month, or you can take that same $10 per month and sign up with GDI. Why GDI? Let me tell ya why I picked GDI.
What I love about GDI are a few things. First, when you sign up with GDI you will be able to have your very own website and domain name. You can do what ever you want with your site. My website is about the power of your thoughts. It's in the process of being finished. Second thing I love about GDI is, when you get other poeple to sign up with GDI, you make money for as long as they have their GDI account. So if you sign up ten people, you will make your monthly fee back and now you it for free. The last and most important reason I picked GDI is if you sign up 5 people in a one week period (Sunday-Saturday) you will make a $100 bonus. That is a $100 every 5 people you sign up in one week. As my websites and groups grow, that is more money for you.
I project at least 20,000 people in the next two years. That's $20,0000 per month for those who get in early. What I will do is promote my websites on and off line to bring in new GDI members. I will have everyone's referral links on my websites. So the more I promote your links the more money you are going to make each month. If you bring a new person into the group that person is yours and will be signed up under you. So the group is going to benifit it's members in many ways.
That is one of the things I am working on. It's work, but the pay offs are going to be big for everyone involved.
I am also working on keeping track of my spending habits. Oh my I just always seem to be low on funds and have no idea where the money went. So starting today, I am writing down ever dang penny I spend so I know where the money is going and I know where to cut back. Let's see how this works itself out. I learned it on a show I was watching on TV this morning.
Of course the next thing on my list is dropping a few pounds. I think that's on most of our minds right. I am trying to come up with the best approach to this long over due task. What I am learning is one day at a time girl, one day at a time. Where there's a will, there's a way.
I welcome all and any feedback, and would love some suggestions on coming up with a name of the group.
Monday, January 7, 2008
Talk is Cheap, but who can afford actions?
I just came up with that title right off the top of my pretty little head! LOL
I was thinking on my way into work this morning, "Sakina, you have to stop talking and start taking actions or else you will end up right where you are next year wishing on a wing and a pray." Man it is so easy to say that. I am not sure what is holding me back. I know the things that I am working on are going to work out, becuase I can see them starting to pick up. I am not sure if it is fear, money, the unknown or what.
I mean I read all of the books and every single day that I don't do what I need to do so that I can do what I want to do I am kicking myself. I have to say, my ass hurts. So what the hell is going on with me? I wish I knew.
I thought I was going to start of on the wonderful journey and i just ended up across the street from my damn apartment building. I didn't even make it down the block!!! When i realized where I was, that put some fire in my shorts! I have to get things moving and shaking.
Ok, so today I am going to go through my programs which are GDI, UMVE, and my new baby which I am really loving Drink Act. I am going to gather all the information, update my websites, and start working on the flyers.
I am working on starting a women's group. Now this is my most favorite idea that I have come up with so far. I love it because I will be able to be with other women who want to get futher then just across the street from where they are now. We can work together to make our situations better rather it be mental, spiritual, or finincal. I have to work out how this is going to go. I live on staten Island but I don't want to forget my sisters in all the other boroughs. I will work it out.
I think, no I know that I have to just do it. Like Nike says. I mean if I don't, I am the only one who is going to be walking around with my ass hurting.
I was thinking on my way into work this morning, "Sakina, you have to stop talking and start taking actions or else you will end up right where you are next year wishing on a wing and a pray." Man it is so easy to say that. I am not sure what is holding me back. I know the things that I am working on are going to work out, becuase I can see them starting to pick up. I am not sure if it is fear, money, the unknown or what.
I mean I read all of the books and every single day that I don't do what I need to do so that I can do what I want to do I am kicking myself. I have to say, my ass hurts. So what the hell is going on with me? I wish I knew.
I thought I was going to start of on the wonderful journey and i just ended up across the street from my damn apartment building. I didn't even make it down the block!!! When i realized where I was, that put some fire in my shorts! I have to get things moving and shaking.
Ok, so today I am going to go through my programs which are GDI, UMVE, and my new baby which I am really loving Drink Act. I am going to gather all the information, update my websites, and start working on the flyers.
I am working on starting a women's group. Now this is my most favorite idea that I have come up with so far. I love it because I will be able to be with other women who want to get futher then just across the street from where they are now. We can work together to make our situations better rather it be mental, spiritual, or finincal. I have to work out how this is going to go. I live on staten Island but I don't want to forget my sisters in all the other boroughs. I will work it out.
I think, no I know that I have to just do it. Like Nike says. I mean if I don't, I am the only one who is going to be walking around with my ass hurting.
Friday, January 4, 2008
Let's Get this Journey started!
Hey there everyone. My name is Sakina. I thought this year would be as good as any to get my mind, spirit, and finical situation in order. Then a light bulb came on in my head (that happens sometimes)and I thought, why don't I share my journey with the whole world. Might be interesting to see where I end up.
So let me tell you about me. Who am I? Good question. I think I know more about me now then I did 5 years ago. Any way, I am Sakina, a woman of a certain age (numbers are not important). I am the mother of Victor (18, Donovan (12), and my sweet little baby girl Olivia (3). I have three of the very best children ever. Yes they drive me nuts, get on my nerves, and make me question if they were switch at the hosiptal. But they are mine now and I love them.
I am engaged to Michael. He is the father of Olivia. We have been together now for 4 years. We have had a rocky relationship off and on. He is a good person and I love him dearly, but there are days when OMG I just want to knock his damn head off. Right now we are getting along and things are good.
For about two years I have been thinking of ways to make money online so I can work from home and be there for my daugther. In doing that I started reading even more then usual. I am a big reader and you will see if you follow me on my journey that I will talk about books that I have read or currently reading. Any who, I started reading book after book about making money, keeping money, saving money, investing money. Money Money Money!!! What I found in reading books like The Secret of a Millionaire Mind, Think and Grow Rich, and anything that Suzie Orman writes (which I so recommend that you read all of this books), it's all about your state of mind. Having money, making money, keeping money it's all about the way you think and feel about money which will determine if you are ever going to have the kind of money you desire. (another word that i have grown to love.)
So here I am, two websites, and I am on my way to to finding the freedom that I think all of us are searching for. I would love to have you join me on this soul searching journey.
I am going to be very open and honest about me, my life, and my journey. Well that's it for today. let's see what happens later.
So let me tell you about me. Who am I? Good question. I think I know more about me now then I did 5 years ago. Any way, I am Sakina, a woman of a certain age (numbers are not important). I am the mother of Victor (18, Donovan (12), and my sweet little baby girl Olivia (3). I have three of the very best children ever. Yes they drive me nuts, get on my nerves, and make me question if they were switch at the hosiptal. But they are mine now and I love them.
I am engaged to Michael. He is the father of Olivia. We have been together now for 4 years. We have had a rocky relationship off and on. He is a good person and I love him dearly, but there are days when OMG I just want to knock his damn head off. Right now we are getting along and things are good.
For about two years I have been thinking of ways to make money online so I can work from home and be there for my daugther. In doing that I started reading even more then usual. I am a big reader and you will see if you follow me on my journey that I will talk about books that I have read or currently reading. Any who, I started reading book after book about making money, keeping money, saving money, investing money. Money Money Money!!! What I found in reading books like The Secret of a Millionaire Mind, Think and Grow Rich, and anything that Suzie Orman writes (which I so recommend that you read all of this books), it's all about your state of mind. Having money, making money, keeping money it's all about the way you think and feel about money which will determine if you are ever going to have the kind of money you desire. (another word that i have grown to love.)
So here I am, two websites, and I am on my way to to finding the freedom that I think all of us are searching for. I would love to have you join me on this soul searching journey.
I am going to be very open and honest about me, my life, and my journey. Well that's it for today. let's see what happens later.
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